Lets try it again

APPARANTLY I SENT MY MESSAGE WITHOUT POSTING A MESSAGE...LOL APRIL ARE YOU FEELING LONELY LATE AT NIGHT BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO ONES BLOG TO READ? I DECIDED I WOULD POST TO YOU SO THAT YOU CAN HAVE SOMETHING TO DO AND SEE HOW PRACTICUM IS GOING?

LETS SEE THE FIRST DAY I STARTED TO LOOSE MY VOICE. BY DAY TWO COMPLETELY GONE,....THEN DAY THREE AND FOUR STILL NOT THERE. SO BY DAY FIVE KINDA BACK, BUT NOW ITS THE WEEKEND AND I AM COUGHING OUT OF CONTROL ALL OVER AGAIN..WHATS THE DEAL WITH THAT.

I CRIED THIS WEEK...GO FIGURE! I HAVE DONE ALOT OF THAT THIS YEAR IN THE PROGRAM. YOU KNOW APRIL, YOU TELL US TO TAP INTO PREVIOUS KNOWLEDGE FOR THINGS TO INTERPRET. YOU WOULD THINK EDUCATIONALLY IT WOULD BE EASY TO TAP INTO PREVIOUS CLASSES AND SO ON, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT...I HAVE NOTHING TO TAP INTO. I FEEL LIKE I AM IN A DIFFERENT WORLD, WHEN I WENT TO SCHOOL ELEM, MIDDLE, JR HIGH AND HIGH NOTHING THAT I LEARNED IS BEING TAUGHT TODAY. KIDS IN LIKE 6TH GRADE ARE LEARNING PRE AL BY8TH GRADE ALEG AND BY 10 GEOM. WHATS THE DEAL WITH THAT..I GRADUATED WITH JUST KNOWING ADDING SUBTRACTING, DIVIDING, AND MULTIPLYING. YOU KNOW MY STUDENTS CAN TEACH ME..HOW SAD! SO TAPPING INTO KNOWLEDGE THIS WEEK IS USELESS BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING TO TAP INTO.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT...I AM HAVING SUCH A GOOD TIME! RACHEL HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME WHEN I HAVE BROKEN DOWN AND SOBBED..SHES ENCOURAGING. YOU KNOW I THOUGHT WE WERE GOING TO WALK INTO THE SCHOOL AND THE MENTOR WAS GOING TO BE THE ONLY ONE ENCOURAGING US AND SO ON, BUT THEY HAVE AN AWESOME TEAM THERE. YOU KNOW EVERYONE OF THOSE INTERPRETERS AREN'T LIKE WE'RE BETTER THEN YOU..EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE..ARE STUFF LIKE THAT. THEY ARE AMAZING, ENCOURAGING US, TELLING US GOOD JOB, FILLING US IN THAT THEY WERE IN OUR SHOES BEFORE. I TOTALLY LOVE THEM ALL! SUPPORTING WOULD BE THE MAIN WORD TO DESCRIBE ALL OF THEM! HOW AWESOME, I AM GLAD TO BE PLACED AT A SCHOOL THAT THE TEAM IS GREAT..I DON'T THINK I WOULD FINISH OUT PRACTICUM IF SOMEONE WASN'T ENCOURAGING AND SPENT TIME BEING CRITICAL AND NOT ENCOURAGING, CAUSE TRUST ME I AM MY OWN WORST CRITIC!
LAG TIME..I AM HAVING A PROBLEM WITH THAT ALSO. I AM SO NERVOUS THAT I STAY RIGHT ON TOP OF THE MESSAGE AFRAID I'LL MISS SOMETHING. I HAVE BEEN SO SICK THIS WEEK WITH THIS STUPID COLD AND THEN CONSTANT FLOW OF STOMACH PROBLEMS DO TO NERVES! AHHHHHHH!! WHEN WILL I CALM DOWN? WHO KNOWS.
I ALSO WANT TO SAY THAT I LOVE THE STUDENTS. VERY ENCOURAGING..THEY ARE ACTUALLY THE ONES WHO ALSO ARE TELLING US TO COME ONE AND INTERPRET FOR PRACTICE, INSTEAD OF BEING LIKE YOU SUCK, DON'T PRACTICE ON ME. VERY HELPFUL AND PATIENT WITH MY SCREW UPS!
HOPEFULLY THIS WEEK COMING UP WILL BE BETTER. I HAVE ASKED TEACHERS FOR LESSON PLANS AND ASKED INTERPRETERS FOR BOOKS FOR RESOURCES TO STUDY UP ON SOME OF THE STUFF. WOOO HOO I WENT FROM BEING IN COLLEGE AND JUST NOW GOING BACKWARDS. HOW FUNNY. I AM GOING TO TRY MORE HANDS ON INTERPRETING LETS SEE HOW THAT GOES.
I HOPE EVERYONE ELSE IS HAVING A GOOD TIME DURING PRACTICUM. IF NO ONE IS ENCOURAGING YOU, HERE ARE MY WORDS, I LOVE YOU GUYS!! YOU (WE) ALL AS A GROUP HAVE IMPROVED SUCH A LONG WAY THIS YEAR AND KNOW THAT A YEAR AGO WE COULDN'T HAVE DONE THIS BUT WE HAVE IMPROVED AND IT WILL ONLY KEEP GETTING BETTER. EVERYONE BE CAREFUL..AND SEE YOU THIS COMING WEEKEND!

Survived the First week of practicum

Friday LAST DAY

I cried today like thats anything new. haha... i really don't know why i think my nerves have gotten the best of me. i am really excited yet nervous on the other hand. not sure what to do next or what steps to take next. i am really thankful for the program. i know yes, of course there could be improvements as if any other year, such as last class education can definately be on line. and put something educationally hands on there. love that you're adding lab next year good for new interpreting students. you know we all pick on the blue book, but most of the information that i have learned and use come from both blue and red book. i know that if not for the program i wouldn't be as improved. i ran into a deaf woman today(this is past frid) and i knew her like ten years ago, because she knew my mom, anyway, she said wow, you've really improved you weren't this good last time i saw you. wow, that made me feel good. so see april, you are teaching something because for someone Deaf to notice, means something. but anyway, rachel is staying with me for practicum, interesting. I haven't had a roomate before just a husband, at least she doesnt require anything from me. hahaha anyway, its tues, practicm so far has been interesting seen different modes of communication used between the students and then with the interpreters. I am enjoying watching and learning and hopefull understanding or picking up more asl structure and receptives. wow, i feel so insignificant compared to the interpreters we are observing, but they are very considerate and reaffirming that once they were in our shoes and on our level and have grown with experience. How refreshing. because apparently we think everyone was just born skilled interpreters...hint hint april. haha. its been a hoot with rachel, all i can say is we have alot more bloopers to post and alost more funny things so definately stay tuned. I have lost my voice within 24 hrs of starting practicum and spent most of my night the frist day of practicum in the bathroom with the runs....you know what mean...massive runny poops. so now i am voiceless and poopless. hahaha. at least rachel doesnt have to listen to me...hahaha or robert listen to me nagging good for them...God answered their prayers.

To Be Continued...

(: we is tired.

we be back, latas.

peace out, c-town down.


tu mama esta llama!!

BLOOOOOOPERs

this is what happens to rachel when she stays with jasmin

"what does k mean? cute?"

wed 9 one more day

who knows if this will post....s0 here i go. ok today again been doing the same video, i don't know if frustrated because same videio or bc still not getting it. who knows. wow, its almost over. but yet i don't feel like i have everything i really need to apply to interpreting. I totally wish the program was longer. instill inside me every tool. like idioms for example just starting to work on them but like i can't remember 108 in 3 days especially if you only see them once. i asked ruby if she can use webcam and post will be easier to learn if see over again and learn to apply.

i kinda feel abandoned. i have enjoyed the past semesters with everyone, and now its like just getting out there. wow, its exciting because i feel like i am making the second step toward my goal, first was school and then second practicum, the real hands on learning experience ...but still scary. its like taking your first baby steps holding your parents hands and then the first steps you take on your own.

Monday again 7

i am gettting ticked off my computer is stupid this evening. I cant submit my assignments nor can i submit my first posts./...AHHHHHH
I am really screaming......inside, bc my kids are asleep.


ok blog agian...weeks almost done yet just started ...liking the idioms, and hands on stuff.

April I love you but i am not blogging everything again on this one, because theres a chance it won't post my other two didn't the first time and i am tired

friday 4

somehow I just blogged but it didn't post....whatever. Ok here we go again...exciting day april gave compliment that lag time good...yeah. also not work on book last class..good didn't feel got much from book, need more hands on awesome

A WHOLE WEDNESDAY APRIL 2

A WHOLE WEDNESDAY APRIL 2

TODAY JEANNA AND I MADE UP A NEW TERM TO THE WORD "DUET" IT WAS GREAT. I DON'T THINK I HAVE EVER LAUGHED SO HARD WITH ANYONE IN MY LIFE. APRIL THIS SONG IS DEDICATED TO YOU....WITH MUCH LOVE.

JEANNA I AM SORRY BUT THIS WAS SO UNFORGETTABLY FUNNY THAT IS MUST BE POSTED FOR THE WORLD TO VIEW. JEANNA THIS SET ME IN THE SINGING MOOD THE REST OF THE DAY ASK RACHEL SHE GOT TO ENJOY MY SINGING FOR THE NEXT HOUR ON MY WAY HOME... SHE GOT A LITTLE DOO OP ACTION, HIP HOP, AND SOME OTHER CRAZY JAZZ...GET IT JAZZ HAHAHA.

WELL FELLOW ITP'S ENJOY THIS ONE IS FOR YOU!!

Bitter Sweet Monday March 31

Today, we start off interpreting some piece I can't remember what it is, but I remember that by the end of the second class on the way to Rubys I was so finished and wanted to go home. I just felt like there was no way to even do this, I am not going to make a good interpreter...I"m not getting it. And then go into last class and April cancels. AHHHHHH. THATS WHAT I WANTED RIGHT. THEN I GOT IT AND DIDN'T WANT IT. WHY IS MY LIFE SO CONFUSING. I THINK I WAS FRUSTRTATED THEN BECAUSE I NEEDED TO LEARN. WHATS WRONG WITH ME, I DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO BE THERE. DO YOU SEE WHAT GOES ON IN MY BRAIN...CONSTANT FIGHTING WITHIN MYSELF.
BUT GOT HOME AT 4 SOMETHING...WOW THATS EXCITING...I ATE DINNER EARLY FOR ONCE!! AND PLAYED UNO WITH HUBBY AND KIDS..........THAT MADE EVERYTHING BETTER, UNTIL THEY WENT TO SLEEP AND I BECOME A GROUCH AGAIN. LOL POOR ROBERT SUFFERS AT MY ATTITUDE

HEARTBREAK HOTEL FRIDAY MARCH 28TH

I THINK THATS A TITLE OR LYRICS TO A COUNTRY SONG THATS HOW I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE RESEMBLES. OK SO TODAY APRIL TOLD US TO TALK FOR AWHILE LIKE ASL.. TO SEE WHAT VOCAB AND THINGS WE USE. SO FROM NOW ON IN THIS MESSAGE ASL TEXTING IS WHAT I B USIN

FRUSTRATING ME, WHY? TALK WED WITH PERSON FOR AUDITING..MEAN WHAT..PERSON HELP YOU KNOW WHEN GRADUATE. ANYWAY, NOW KNOW CAN WALK GRADUATION MAY, CAN. ONLY NEED TWO MORE CLASSES WILL FINISH SUMMER. CALL DAD TODAY TELL THAT GRADUATING ME MAY 10TH. DAD NOT COME, CAN'T WORK. WHATEVER . FRUSTRATED ME. WHY, START COLLEGE ALMOST AGE 23 GRADUATE 25 WITH TWO KIDS DRIVE 5HRS DAY. WHY NOT SUPPORT ME WHY? FEEL LIKE ACCOMPLISHMENT, BUT SUPPORT NOT. GRANDMA ALSO WHO HELP SUPPORT PRG ME GO, CAN'T COME ALSO. AHHHHHHH!!! DRIVE HOME TODAY YES CRY ME.

SAD NOW NOT WANT TALK ABOUT FAMILY. ANYWAY. TODAY HAPPY ME FINALLY ABOUT ONE WEEK MORE SCHOOL, WHY WILL HELP SKILL IMPROVE WILL. NEED HELP ME. NEED MORE SIGNING WITH OTHER, NEED WATCH MORE SIGNING. LEARN TODAY ASL STUDENTS KNOW IDIOMS. WISH LEARN PRG OURS. BUT HOPEFULLY SUMMER WILL LEARN WHEN HAVE WORKSHOP AT FAIRMONT

TODAY ENJOY SIGNING FOR COMPUTER PERSON THING ENJOYED. PRACTICED NEED, OPEN MIND, VOCABULARY, EXPANSIONS, VISUALIZING NEED INCORPORATE. MUST HAVE WHY NEED BECOME GOOD INTERPRETER MUST HAVE SKILLS THOSE. FEEL ME MOODY, SAD, UPSET, FRUSTRATED NOW. AHHH!!!!!!!!!!! STOP WRITING, WHY..WANT MOPE..MEAN WHAT...FEEL SORRY. POOR ME SELF

MAD BAD DRAMA MA MA WED MARCH 26TH

MY DAY STARTS OFF WONDERFUL. I KNOW THAT WE ARE DOING OUR SKIT TODAY...EXCITING. NERVOUS NOT, EXCITED. ( SEE USING MY EXPANSIONS) I CAN APPLY TOOLS.
I THINK ALOT OF PEOPLE WERE NERVOUS BUT I DON'T KNOW WHY THESE THINGS DON'T BOTHER..MAYBE CUZ THE CAMERA LOVES ME..OOOO LA LA.:) RACHEL AND I UM..ONLY PRACTICED THE SKIT ONCE AND THAT WAS FIVE MINUTES BEFORE THE SKIT..LOL BUT OVERALL THE ACTING, YES THANKS TO ME WONDERFUL, MAGNIFIC. SEE NOW I CAN SPEAK THREE LANGUAGES, EAT YOUR HEART OUT ITP GIRLS. YOU ONLY HAVE TWO. LOL SERIOUSLY I LIKED DOING THE SKIT, I HAD TO KEEP MYSELF FROM LAUGHING BECAUSE I WAS DEAF AND RACH WAS HEARING AND SARAH AND BETH WERE THE INTERPRETERS BUT I COULD HEAR WHAT RACH IS SAYING AND THEN SARAH AND BETH INTERPRETING IT AND WHEN ONE WOULD MAKE A MISTAKE AND VOICE SOMETHIGN WRONG I WOULD START TO LAUGH ...I DON'T KNOW WHY..THAT WAS MY WAY OF FEELING SORRY FOR THEM...WHAT A CRAPPY EMOTION TO SHOW FOR FEELING SORRY, I WILL LAUGH AT YOU..HAHA I REALLY AM SYMPATHETIC. SO THEN I WOULD KISS ADORAS BABY DOLL WHICH WAS USED FOR PROP ON THE HEAD, NEEDLESS TO SAY...I KISS THE BABY LIKE THIRTY TIMES.
THEN RECORDED THE RECIPES...APRIL I HATED THAT ASSIGNMENT. ONLY BECAUSE YOU SAID HAVE SOMEONE CHOOSE A RECIPE AND NOT LOOK AT IT AND ONLY TAKE ONCE...WELL ORCHRA WAS IN MINE...WHAT IS THAT?? OK SO THAT WORD CAUSED ME TO STUMBLE..THEN I AM PLAYING CATCH UP BECAUSE LAGGING FAR BEHIND CAUSE OF ORCHRA WHICH I CANT SPELL OR KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE...AND YOU KOW WHAT I COOK EVERYDAY...SO APPARENTLY ANYTHING I'VE COOKED DOESNT' REQUIRE THAT. i SHOULD HAVE JUST FINGERSPELLED CHICKEN...EVERYTHING TASTES LIKE IT ANYWAY.
THEN WE DID A VIDEO...ITP GIRLS GONE ........COO COO!! IT WAS AWESOME..APRIL YOU WILL HAVE TO WATCH AND KEEP FOREVER!!
TONIGHT WAS THE GLT..THAT WAS INTERESTING..I LIKE THE GUY. SEEMED NICE, FLEW BY WITH THE SIGNING..BUT MAN I THOUGHT WE WERE GOING TO HAVE TO TURN INTO JERRY SPRINGER.....JERRY JERRY!!! ASL STUDENTS WERE BEING EXTREMELY RUDE BLURTING OUT THE SIGNS THE INTERPRETER MISSED AND SAYING THEY COULD DO A BETTER JOB...VOICING LOUDLY WHATEVER..RUDE RUDE.INTERPRETING IS A HARD JOB, AND I JUST THINK ALL THEY UNDERSTAND RIGHT NOW IS THE CONCEPT OF READING SIGNS AND LEARNING SIGN LANGUAGE RUDE AWAKENING NEXT YEAR WHEN WHAT YOU THINK YOU'VE LEARNED ASL YOU HAVE TO TAKE IN SWITCH AND THEN PROCESS. THEY WILL SEE. BUT I NOT MAD ANYMORE NO GRUDGE HOLDING NOW...LIFES TO SHORT.
LONG DRIVE HOME AGAIN ALMOST TEN!!

MONDAY MONDAY

ready for skit today...but found out last night beths dad was going in for surgery...beth I am sorry! but not don't have to bring my equipment to school and leave it in my car so thats good. I think it was today that I found out another week of class....ahhh. more driving. I think I was extremely disappointed. I am just so tired of driving. sometimes my emotions get the best of me and I forget that i need to practice and need the extra week or years of school and allow my human side of hating the drive to interfer with the needing extra week. awesome we are working on more signing. thats what I need. I know that i am all hands on as well and i learn my vocabulary during our different activities or watching others.this is pretty interesting. you know i am not nervous anymore being in front of everyone. at the begining of the year absolutely..but not its like family. and you hate them just like you do with family,.....hahaha just joking..some what! :)

March 17-22

Its sad, but April don't be mad...but I can't remember what happened last week sorry. I will do better keeping up with blogging. Its just when its not in my face I don't think of it. Anyway....I am thinking that I was excited because only like two more weeks of school and stuff. Yippy!! Let me give you a fact for the day though....expecting weather forcast...MONDAY WEDNESDAY FRIDAY..EXPECT SNOW OR RAIN!! WHY BECAUSE THATS WHAT IT SEEMS TO DO ON THOSE DAYS!! TUES THURS SAT SUN WEATHER IS FINE BUT M W F IT HATES ME AND WANTS TO SNOW AND RAIN!!

Spring Break Baby March 10-14

PAY ATTENTION PEOPLE WE HAVE ALL BE LIED TOO!!!! They say" Oh, we give the tools you apply them.", "You'll be fine when you graduate.", "You're improving doing good" WHATEVER!! I can tell you this, I was not prepared! For what you ask, my experience to go observe at a school. what could go wrong you ask? why was it frightening you ask? what were you thinking you ask? Let me tell you. Wrong, I accidently blurted out the answer to a student when they asked me. The student was trying to address the interpreter but we were engaged in conversation, and she was looking at me, so then when the student tried to address her and the she didn't see the student they looked at me and asked the question, opps instead of asking it back or tell them to think for themselves I shook my head, yes! Like duh, thats the right answer. How stupid...now I am "labeled" as the interpreter as if you ask she will tell. Probably not but thats what I thought. It was interesting observing for two days. Meeting different kinds of interpreters and Deaf students amazing. But really I don't feel prepared, I actually feel inadequate. The rest of the interpreters also graduating from the same program just offered else where were really good. Skills and knowledge seem to out do mine by a mile. overall I feel like I have alot to do. why do I feel like we're being lied too, its a joke. I really didn't on the spot remember how to apply what tools we've learned, but probably do to nerves who knows. Who knows??

howdy spowdy march 7th

How sweet it is to be loved by you!!! I don't know why but as I am starting to write this blog that lyrics came to me, so I shall share with the rest of you. I have to sit down by a calander to help my figure out what the heck we have done because I had forgotten to blog. Believe it or not forgetting to talk...usually something I don't forget but ooooopppsss!! Alright so thinking back to this day....LONG DAY! First off I was so excited because it is starting spring break at 7 tonight !! But wow, what a long day. I like Shiloh and she was interesting, I wish she would have presented more, and did more signing. But I think all were so burned out that we just wanted to go home. I appreciate that you held the conference so I and everyone else didn't have to drive the next day but yeah, didn't get home until like after ten. The roads were extrememly foggy and interestate 79 in fog not good together. Concept mapping interesting. But when do you apply it, will you think of it immediately or will it be something that hits you later after finishing interpreting.I don't know. I didn't feel well, I had to poop really bad during the conference...yeah might sound simple, but I have a fobia, don't know if thats spelled right or not but anyway I have hard time pooping in public. wow. But got so bad I couldn't wait for 3 hrs to poop...I HAVE BEEN WAITING ALL DAY!! Needless to say I went to the bathroom before heading home, no one was in there, and everything came out alright!

frid feb 23

oops forgot to post this day...its because I was extremely sick...So was just about everyone else in the Class. April sorry but I don't remember much from this day besides the fact that I thought I was going to be bed written for awhile..how dramatic:) I know the next day I saw Wiley and the Hairy man..didn't get home until 1am...my house flooded then that sunday morning. But at least I rested Friday night when I got home. This cold or whatever kicked my butt for like almost 9days or so.

feb 5

OK today AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Class not that bad, nothing really hard..only portfolio to do and then Rubys test FRIDAY!! You know what I am probably less nervous about the test because unlike any other test we basically determine what grade we get because its performance. I am excited. I think overall it will be good for everyone.
Today Rachel, Jody,Charles, and myself got a TB test and then I decided that I like pain so much lets go for a tetanus shot...STUPID I can hardly move my arm today.
NEXT TIME RACHEL TALK ME OUT OF THAT!!

THE END IS COMING THE END IS COMING....LIKE 3 MORE WEEKS FROM SPRING BREAK..I don't know if I am more excited to finally start pursuing my dream or more nervous of failure. You know my grandma really has pushed me to doing this but it has always somewhat been developed within me and I just feel like the dream for interpreting in my life is just getting bigger and bigger.
Soon its all up to me..how good, successful,goal oriented, determined am I. Enough to continue studying and learning on my own when I am finished? That's a scary thought, I don't want to fail myself or even my soon to be clients by not expanding my knowledge and education. So the thought of failure actually is my determination part..is that weird. Thinking I could fail actually keeps me focused and determined to proceed ahead full force.

March 3

Lets tell ya about the weekend. Jeanna, Rachel, and Marci came home with me on Friday for a workshop. SORRY but what happens in St. Albans stays in St. ALbans!!!!! LOL JUST JOKING! LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT ALL THE PARTYING...SIKE. We went to Adoras last cheerleading thing, came back and ate and ate the rest of the evening :) We had good food. We played with the kids and then when they went to bed we played taboo ASL Style. That was fun. Are you kidding I haven't had a sleep over in over ten years. So this was a blast!
Got up and spent all day at a workshop..then I came home and went to sleep same time as my kids y 6:30pm. WOW THAT LONG NIGHT OF TABOO JUST WORE ME OUT :)
First day of this week then spring break yes!!! I feel like this is such a vital week its really freaky. Profolio,tests,I don't even know what else. But I am excited! I don't know if I am more excited about not driving or really being able to start interpreting..I might be the only one excited about that...my poor clients to come:)

FEB29th

Today was good. I missed all week but there wasn't that much to make up. I hate missing the points for class. One more week then spring break....YEAH!!! I am excited about just relaxing and especially not driving, but I don't know how relaxing its going to be or not. I want to try to do some observing within the schools MWF if allowed, but if not trust me lots of things to do here. I want to start working on my backyard. Getting it ready for summer.
Time is flying that four weeks to go..crunch time. We keep hearing that this is crucial and if grades aren't up then can't go to practicum. Nerve racking!!!! So scared not going to pass the course or go off to practicum. But I really am trying to do my best. I think I am juggling overall pretty well with everything I have to do.

Feb 27th

Snowed in!!!!!! I couldn't go..!Trust me I was upset, but did enjoy the day off. There was like 2in or so I didn't drive for days.

Feb 25

Nothing today....schools cancelled

I am not alone

Tension running high today....... wow, I don't think I have ever been in a class where the looks on everyone's face explains it all. We took a test today and of course that means I spent yesterday..(in between my breakdown) and Monday night studying my butt off for this test...APRIL DID IT PAY OFF???? But I am excited in a weird way that I am not alone when it comes to crunch time and stressing out!!!!
I woke up today took a shower, got dressed, and left. In about 10min into my drive it started snowing, how sucky. Not only does it start snowing but like it's suppose to be some sort of "big snow storm" great now I thought I was going to be stuck in Fairmont..2 1/2hrs away from home..whatever! But I pressed on!! trust me I didn't want to I wanted to go home, but kept on going. Thank GOD that the snow waited to get really bad until I got home, granted took me OVER 3HRS TO GET HOME..why you ask, because I was going 40mph because the roads were a little bad, and there were like 3 bad wrecks and I wanted to be safe.
Because of the weather Mike (from fingerspelling) can be greatful cause I couldn't stay for fingerspelling SO NO BEAT DOWNS TODAY!...and trust me there was alot of aggression I could have let out!! :) Overall after finishing the test I feel better. I called GRANDMA today...she's my encourager!! Now this woman is the only grandma I have and really the only immediate family member that even contacts me (besides dad,mom,violet,mother..yes two mom's its weird)aw..poor me. But back on track, I called grandma and told her about my emotional breakdown lastnight that I felt my life was going crazy, lack of sleep, hardly anytime with kids, tired of driving, blah blah blah....She told me she knew it was hard but hang in there it will be worth it..! What a wonderful woman..Even in her 70 + (your not getting her age :) yrs she is still encouraging me..i love her. That woman is my inspiration to interpreting! If it wasn't for her I would not be in this program. I don't think I can do it, but she does. She told me she can see improvement...YEAH! RIGHT NOW I AM FEELING GOOD..DON'T BURST MY BUBBLE! So either the Deaf community one day will thank Grandma for encouraging me because I will be a great interpreter or they will HATE her for encouraging me on because they think I suck....WHICH ONE WILL IT BE??????

Fridays post 2/15 and wed 2/13

WEDNESDAY SOME MIGHT THINK I AM LYING BUT IT'S TOTALLY SNOWING HERE IN THE WONDERFUL TOWN OF ST. ALBANS. THE ROADS ARE COMPLETELY COVERED AND UNDER THE SNOW IS ICE. I AM NOT DRIVING TODAY. SORRY!! BUT NEXT TIME YOU SEE ME I WANT TO BE ALIVE.

FRIDAY...TODAY, AGAIN I HAVE TO MISS FINGERSPELLING. I VERY MUCH ENJOY THAT CLASS. HAVING EVERYONE LAUGH AT THE ITP STUDENT WHO IS NOT KEEPING UP WITH THE FIRST YEAR ASL STUDENTS. AHHHHHHHHHHHH!! BUT THAT'S OK..I STILL SMART:) HUM...DO YOU WANT TO GUESS WHAT I WILL BE DOING THIS WEEKEND...STUDYING! WE HAVE A TEST IN THE BLUE BOOK..AND AS EVERYONE KNOWS THE BLUE BOOK TESTS ARE BY FAR HARDER THEN ANY OTHER TESTS!

I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL, RACHEL, IN YOUR BLOG ABOUT GOING TO ROANE COUNTY SCHOOLS. ARE YOU KIDDING...I AM FREAKED OUT AND NOT SURE IF APRIL HAS ANY IDEA WHAT SHE IS DOING PLACING ME THERE...:) A PART OF ME FEELS REALLY GOOD AND UP LIFTED THAT APRIL EVEN CONSIDERED PUTTING ME THERE. I HAVE NEVER HAD ANYONE OFFER TO ALLOW ME TO FOLLOW AND LEARN FROM THEM OR OFFER TO BE MY MENTOR. SHILOH IS EITHER REALLY A SMART WOMAN TO OFFER OR COMPLETELY GOING TO REGRET ME, BECAUSE I AM GOING TO BE STUCK TO HER LIKE GLUE..FEEDING FOR ANY HELPFUL INSIGHT, INFORMATION, NEW SIGNS, ECT. SHE MIGHT CALL YOU, APRIL, AND TELL YOU TO TAKE ME BACK:) THAT'S WHAT MOST PEOPLE DO..TRY TO SEND ME BACK WHERE I CAME FROM!

stressed out itp student

Ok...let's see if this actually works. Definitely kinda new to this whole thing.. I guess this is my venting board, today sucked!!!! I totally spent around 10-12hrs studying this weekend to come in and test and find that what I studied wasn't even on the test. Where did I go wrong? I can definitely say that I probably was the most stressed out today than I have been this semester. Knowing that we have so much to do in such a little time is stressful anyway, but then to have test back to back (at least it feels like it) to finish so we can go to practicum within like a month and a half or so just feels so overwhelming. See, for some people studying comes natural or making good grades comes natural but for me...NOT!!! I have to study for HOURS AND HOURS and then I am just relying on prayer to get me through. :) Seriously, I was never the type of person that just made good grades or educationally things came easy to me, nope not me. I think that's why I am so stressed. I am not undernurished by any means, but completely sleeped deprived and studied out. And I think I am just trying to juggle being a mom, student, traveling, and, somewhere, sleeping in all of this. But guess what I am doing tonight...........yep, STUDYING! Poor Rachel who sits beside me and continues to pat me on the back....I think she can sense my stress...or she just feels really sorry for me because she thinks I am being over dramatic..who knows. But all the stress from today was bottled so deep within me that during a fingerspelling class I would let it out on poor MIKE! haha...during a competition I hit a guy from a fingerspelling class that I am technically not a part of ..they just allow Rachel and I to join..Basically so they can laugh at our lack of skills. But poor Mike didn't see getting a beat down coming. Not really a beat down..just smacked him in his stomach.
But in all seriousness, I just want this so bad that I am stressing, thinking interpreting is beyond my capabilities and above any goal that I can set. It's like when I actually think I can do this and be remotely good, something happens to discourage me. I am totally at odds within myself. Sometimes I am waiting to just hear someone tell me to stop trying this isn't for me. I think that's why I keep asking April if she thinks I can do this. Don't LIE!! That's normally what I say. HEy APRIL YOU'RE READING THIS...FEEL FREE TO TELL ME THE TRUTH..I CAN TAKE IT LIKE A WOMAN! Well now that I have shared my depressing feelings for the day to the world..I think I actually might feel better:)

stressed out itp student

Hi,

I'm Jasmin (actually, I'm Rachel, writing as Jasmin), and this is just to remind me to do my journal.

I thought I'd be a cool kid and start blogging like my dear friend Rachel. She is the epitome of cool, and I want to be just like her.

Okay, I'm going to come back and write a more efficient post.

Peace Out, C-Town Down.

-J